I haven't been blogging much lately because there hasn't been to much going on that I felt I needed to write about. Truthfully the only reason I'm writing now is because I am wide awake and figured I mind as well. I would say my mood is happy/nervous when it comes to moving out in 2 weeks. I feel super nervous because this isn't the way I thought things would be and I thought/hoped I would be in a better financial state but hey I can only hope that things do turn around for me in the long run. On to the job front and still no luck, when on an interview last week and the job was horrible but most importantly the pay fucking sucked. I never thought it would this hard for a recent college student to actually find a job. And I will admit I have my days where I regret leaving my job to go back to school, and the more I am without a job the more I regret my decision. But at the end of the day regretting something doesn't truly change anything. I understand the economy is in the toilet right now but I'm need things to pick up ASAP. I've been applying my ass off to jobs and a couple of my friends are telling me I might have to lower my standard extremely and just take what I can get...but what can I say my pride gets in my way and I can't see myself working those types of jobs. When the subject even comes up all I can think of is "Is this what I put myself in debt for". Maybe that's the pride talking and my pride can get in my way big time, maybe I'm wrong and they are right but I just don't see it.
The last couple of days have been crazy, Brandon and I have been doing a lot of running around as far as this apartment thing goes. Can't wait to move but I'm not a Queens person but I am sure about to become one, never thought I would even live in Queens. I will say this tho I love the area and it seems quiet which is what I want. Looking for an apartment was a long process and time consuming. What I realize is that every agent/owner will try to make it seem like if you don't get this apt right now someone will take it because it's such a great deal. One man was hilarious, the apartment was about 15 or more blocks from my house which is basically a world apart lol. Anyway it was a 2 bedroom for 1250 which is a good deal in Brooklyn but now lets get to the negatives....I go into one of the bedrooms and look out the window and there are two men who appeared to be tipsy chilling leaning up on the mailbox, then across the street in front of the store there was a guy sitting on a crate. Oh I forgot one of the weirdest parts, so we get out the car and there are these people sitting in front of the building, and as soon as we park the car they stop talking and just stare at us. so the agent comes we walk towards the ppl to pass them and they are still staring as we walk in. So the agent forgets the keys to the apt in that particular building but the company also owned the one next door so we leave building A for B, and what do u know the people again stop talking and watch us walk to the building right next door, talk about EXTREMELY weird. So we are finally leaving building B and a tenant comes out and he appears anger as he walks to the front door, he opens it and what u know his family member is laid out in the front drunk out of his fucking mind, the tenant is cursing telling the FM to get in the house the FM is all out of it. So me and B walk pass them and so does the agent now this is what tripped us both out the agent didn't address the issue he just got into his car, I think he would have at least said something to us...nope. Oh and the drunk incident occurred at get this 4pm on a SUNDAY!!! We saw some horrible apts and some tat were nice but not worth the money they were asking for. I think we found a good one in Queens.
I'm far from cheesy but I never would have imagined this is where my life would be right now, I've been in a relationship for a yr and a half and I am about to move in with said boyfriend. I think its great the way things happen in life and how it throws you for surprising turns in life. I'm grateful that I met him and at the time I wasn't even looking for a relationship. At the time I was just getting over a bad situation that in some ways jaded my faith in people, well not people I should say men lol. I think even if you don't intent to, you can bring over baggage from a previous relationship and my situation wasn't any different, so it took awhile for me to trust him. But that saying "everything happens for a reason" is so true, I swear and and it took a bunch of things to happen for me to meet him and one was me realizing my old situation was old news and I needed to truly move on with my life and I have and I haven't looked back since. We work and that's not to say we don't get into heated arguments sometimes because we are both far from perfect and we had our ups and downs but hey cheesy and all we make it work. And that's not to brag or boost its just real and I'm lucky to have found someone who gets me. Okay I try to keep my cheesy moments like these to a minimum...The next time I write a blog I'll be in my new apartment, can't wait for the housewarming.
